a new beginning
Hi everyone. Welcome to 2010. lol.
ok, since it's the first time since i last blogged like ages ago, i shall share some of the things that happened over the year.
starting from valentine's day. Well, nothing much, just met with a car accident last year, ended up in the hospital, went for ops, 10 days unable to eat. And gained a long and ugly scar, and lost 12over kgs. MC for like 3 months. ya. U didn't read wrongly. It all happened on valentine's day.
Just when i thought i am recovering, i have this irritating skin problem. Called dermographism or something. It's really irritating. Shall not describe it, but , seriously it sucks! N because of this problem, i was like so so so so so worried. Well , some should know what i mean. others may not. But i''m glad, everything is over; i mean the worrying part. not the skin problem. It still persists till today.
And over the years, i had changed my mentality. From being someone super sianz, super hot-tempered, super serious, super hostile, etc. All the bad points. to someone who feels life is so precious. I treasure every min every sec of my time. I really hate to waste time after tat freaky accident. To me, time is precious, life is precious, everything is so precious. I used to mind alot of what people feel and think about me, but who cares now. I'm for who i'm.. Used to let others live my life for me, now, i live my own life.
Furthermore, i gained many close friends through this period. Seriously, alot of which i feel i will be contacting alot in time to come. Through recently i lost two very close buddies as they went overseas, at least i have this bunch of close friends. Well, alan thad shah etc..
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And for this 1 year plus, i really need to thank someone.
Someone who is of such importance to me.
From the day we talked, the day we got together,
you are by my side, experiencing everything with me, supporting, motivating, looking after me, everything that a person can do, you did it all.
I know that this one year, i'm really not myself.. I haven't overcome something i called "fear" in me; As well as i'm super hot-tempered because of hatred in me. I just regretted certain things. The flashbacks really made me think alot. What exactly did i do so far in these 21 years. . The disappointments, the mistakes, the regrets. .. . .. ..
I know i'm unreasonable, demanding at times,
I know that i tend to try implant my ideas to your brain.
I know that i'm not a Gd bf, someone who is caring, sweet, concerned, forgiving etc.
What i have to say is that, ever since 18th Aug, after what i declared as a new beginning day in my life, (due to the worries, the hatred etc) my mindset had changed.
In the past, i really demand alot from you, a change etc.
Now, i would want to say, just be yourself, be comfortable, for i love you as you. Nothing more important than this point.
In the past, i really intolerant towards you,
now, i cant guarantee, but, i promise i will change to become someone who is tolerant towards someone i love alot.
In the past, i'm really boring, always staying home (partly because of fear and worries),
now, i promise we will explore places that you wish to go,
go shopping with you for the things you want to buy, anything. As long as i can do it and not against my principles of life.
What i really want is you. The true you.
You, who is comfortable with me,
You, who loves me as well as treats me like a best friend, listening ear, supporting pillar etc.
You, who shares everything with me. I know that i used to get angry, when you share things with me, because i felt you were stubborn when i advised you. But no more. I just want you to share with me, I will not scold.
You, who smiles.
You, who is sweet, as you are.
You, who i love.
Just be yourself, why bother to try when you already stand out.
sorry about everything that i did and said in the past that hurt you; Hope everything will be back to normal, especially myself. Back to my old self, no longer struggling with worries etc. And i hope our relationship will take a step upwards. Into a new stage, our future.
I love you, Lim Huiyu.
Thanks for your patience with me. I'm sure in time to come, your patience will be paid off,
I will try my best, to bring out your smile. =)
No more tears i hope.
Await my sweetness girl..
ok, since it's the first time since i last blogged like ages ago, i shall share some of the things that happened over the year.
starting from valentine's day. Well, nothing much, just met with a car accident last year, ended up in the hospital, went for ops, 10 days unable to eat. And gained a long and ugly scar, and lost 12over kgs. MC for like 3 months. ya. U didn't read wrongly. It all happened on valentine's day.
Just when i thought i am recovering, i have this irritating skin problem. Called dermographism or something. It's really irritating. Shall not describe it, but , seriously it sucks! N because of this problem, i was like so so so so so worried. Well , some should know what i mean. others may not. But i''m glad, everything is over; i mean the worrying part. not the skin problem. It still persists till today.
And over the years, i had changed my mentality. From being someone super sianz, super hot-tempered, super serious, super hostile, etc. All the bad points. to someone who feels life is so precious. I treasure every min every sec of my time. I really hate to waste time after tat freaky accident. To me, time is precious, life is precious, everything is so precious. I used to mind alot of what people feel and think about me, but who cares now. I'm for who i'm.. Used to let others live my life for me, now, i live my own life.
Furthermore, i gained many close friends through this period. Seriously, alot of which i feel i will be contacting alot in time to come. Through recently i lost two very close buddies as they went overseas, at least i have this bunch of close friends. Well, alan thad shah etc..
----------
And for this 1 year plus, i really need to thank someone.
Someone who is of such importance to me.
From the day we talked, the day we got together,
you are by my side, experiencing everything with me, supporting, motivating, looking after me, everything that a person can do, you did it all.
I know that this one year, i'm really not myself.. I haven't overcome something i called "fear" in me; As well as i'm super hot-tempered because of hatred in me. I just regretted certain things. The flashbacks really made me think alot. What exactly did i do so far in these 21 years. . The disappointments, the mistakes, the regrets. .. . .. ..
I know i'm unreasonable, demanding at times,
I know that i tend to try implant my ideas to your brain.
I know that i'm not a Gd bf, someone who is caring, sweet, concerned, forgiving etc.
What i have to say is that, ever since 18th Aug, after what i declared as a new beginning day in my life, (due to the worries, the hatred etc) my mindset had changed.
In the past, i really demand alot from you, a change etc.
Now, i would want to say, just be yourself, be comfortable, for i love you as you. Nothing more important than this point.
In the past, i really intolerant towards you,
now, i cant guarantee, but, i promise i will change to become someone who is tolerant towards someone i love alot.
In the past, i'm really boring, always staying home (partly because of fear and worries),
now, i promise we will explore places that you wish to go,
go shopping with you for the things you want to buy, anything. As long as i can do it and not against my principles of life.
What i really want is you. The true you.
You, who is comfortable with me,
You, who loves me as well as treats me like a best friend, listening ear, supporting pillar etc.
You, who shares everything with me. I know that i used to get angry, when you share things with me, because i felt you were stubborn when i advised you. But no more. I just want you to share with me, I will not scold.
You, who smiles.
You, who is sweet, as you are.
You, who i love.
Just be yourself, why bother to try when you already stand out.
sorry about everything that i did and said in the past that hurt you; Hope everything will be back to normal, especially myself. Back to my old self, no longer struggling with worries etc. And i hope our relationship will take a step upwards. Into a new stage, our future.
I love you, Lim Huiyu.
Thanks for your patience with me. I'm sure in time to come, your patience will be paid off,
I will try my best, to bring out your smile. =)
No more tears i hope.
Await my sweetness girl..
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